Is it the conscience??

Perhaps an overdose of psychological movies or the mere physical presence in a location that boasts of unraveling brain mysteries has lead me to this title. The grandeur of brain being the seat of secrets and the source of unimaginable power seems so overrated to me. When on one half of the balance we keep the potential of unleashing limitless power while on the other half we keep the self devastating inner core that razes down even the mightiest of achievements.

My statements might seem so trivial but its so evident when our own conscience is burning us down. You may fight the world from outside but what if your own self has disowned it!!

Whatever cardinal sin it might be, jealousy, hatred, lascivious act, it catches up with you. So why are driven to such things??. what makes us not follow what is right and what is not? Is the definition of right so screwed that we fail to comprehend it. Perhaps the fault is with the conscience itself. First it lets us drown into vile and depraved caverns and then when we wake up, it castigates us for the sin we just committed... Perhaps....

Insecurities of life...

Life is strange. i always thought i was the 1 complex and perplexed. but the truth is that no 1 is spared from the vagaries of life. we all no matter how cool may project ourselves, get worried crazily over something or the other. what we get crazy on differs from person to person. Even the seemingly coolest person has insecurities, whether it is regarding his future, his girl friend/ boy friend or regarding his friend circle. many a times our biggest asset of living in groups becomes our worst nightmare.

Being in a relationship is demanding, we have to do stuff that we don't want to do just to stay in the relation. we are regularly infested with insecurities of being left alone, left behind. Alone at the junctions of life crying out silent tears for help and praying that he/she would listen, would notice.

life is complex and if u thought u have seen enough, experienced enough emotions, learned how to live in relations and avoid confrontations, u are so wrong!!!
Guess we would never be able to crystallize the essence and secret for being happy in a relation at all points.....

LeT iT bE...

When the world is trying to drown you,

When the world surrounds you,

When everyone wants answers from you,

Let the words be clear to you.

Let it be….

When curses stop punching you,

When regret fails to bother you,

Just think wild and feel free…

And just let it be….

For the world is mean and coward,

Pain and suffering is the only reward.

For no one can truly see,

Just let it be…..

Happiness is the gift they despise,

Tax is what they desire.

Happiness is for the courage and strong,

Pardon me for being weak and wrong..

No matter what I would still remain free,

And always say let it be….

When Friends hurt...

September 1,2008 was a difficult day for me....
i just wanted to skip the day...as if just the touch of the day would burn my skin...
i didnt want to be seen......nor did i wanted to be heard...

So i just shut myself in my room...slept the whole day trying to avoid any rare glimpses that i might have been forced to encounter...

The toughest thing to do in life is not to run away from the world...but to run away from yourself....i felt trying to force my self into ignorance that if i keep my eyes shut, no one, not even myself would be able to see me!!!

My friends, were perturbed by the whole thing, enquired me bout my erratic behavior...
but unfortunately i couldn't tell them...

They say "you can solve all problems of life if you have friends with you..." But what if the friends themselves give you the pain of problems???? Who do u go to then???

Its strange that friends can really hurt u badly... and wen they do they can really hurt so deeply that it takes the breath out of you.... The most articulate way to save ur self is by telling your friend what the problem is...

But i guess i've found my better way of fighting the troubles that i cant handle at that time....

I just dont handle them at that moment!!! I leave it to the Lord... and believe in him...Just as a new born believes in his mother....

It just works for me!!!!