Use of Blogging???

Well many may question the timing of the blog especially wen we are in the middle of exams..
i dont know how this question poped in my mind....

But probably it was a remark by a friend that was very unexpected considering that i had gone to him to pull myself out of an impasse...

So what is my aim of writing a blog entry???Is it cheap publicity stunt???The way i put it on orkut says thing...so that it is updated in every 1's updates!! :P
Or is it that i feel its a source where i get to express my inner feelings....
Or is it its a manifestation of the my deepest and reserved carving for a literary stint????

well its i guess a bit of every 1 of these reasons....But foremost its a platform for me to write things which really appeal to me and are on my mind which probably i want the world to know!!!

Does crying help??

Crying is the well known phenomena where tears roll down the eye.The usual occurance of this phenomena is when we are in some emotional trouble,when feel sad abut something...when something so close to us leaves us and the only way to bid adieu is the tears... apart from these...tears can also roll down when a foreign body tries to barge in....and last of when we are cutting onion!!!!!

biologically speaking... tears are the mechanisms by which we can prevent bacteria or some other foreign material from damaging our eyes....It contains something we biologists call lysosomes...

the question now is does crying help??? we have always used tears as a means of letting ourselves know of the immense grief our body is going thru at that time.....we have used it as a way to calm our body after a difficult situation that we find incapable of handling...even though crying may portray our inner weakness of handling the emotional trauma....Men prefer to avoid it...Even though todays metro sexual men dont hesitate to show it off!!!

Although women have many a times used it as a potent weapon to ensure their conquest over men....

The Ultimate Motive!!!

Well it might sound like a movie title but surely its far away from that...

I might not have told you that most of my blogs are written with an objective and a motive with a particular person in mind.Its always inspired by an incident in my life or a person close to me.

But the motive thing is not constrained just in blogs but all thru in my life in whatever i do...there has always been a hidden motive....like most of us...

The things we say..the actions we do... all are meant to pay us back in some way or other...
Some times we do things out of our way to please people...like waiting in long lines to get something so that other person doesnt have to!!!The times we become partial to favor something that may not be true or the righteous thing to do...

But i guess thats the way things are with humans and there should nt be any guilt in doing anything like that....

What kind of person are you- morning or night???

I dont know if people have tried to figure it out or not...but i guess this post will help them decide or at least think for a moment about what kind of person they are....

The whole thing started this morning when i expressed a long observed event...that of a friend looking like a chinki in the morning...(u kno the small eyes like Chinese or Koreans). this was always coupled by the morning slackness in him...so me and another friend of mine started discussing bout the thing. I remarked that he was not a morning person..

This was based on my previous days reading bout the discovery of new theory saying that we sleep when brain cells start sleeping!!
So in some people the cells are still sleeping even when they are awake!!! While others feel very refreshed after a sound sleep in the night and are back to full energy levels...These are morning people...

there is another group of people who are very active and in full form in the night...Those are the night people...u cant win over such people in the night...

Does the blog sound familiar to u???so i guess this is the time to figure what kind of person are u????

Angry at Friends???

"It hurt wen i had no friends,i was alone....But it hurts even more wen i have friends and still feel alone in the crowd......" this was my status message quite some time back....

Actually this was inspired by some ugly fights with some close friends...(not that any fight with a friend is beautiful!!). But believe me it was not a good experience for me in any way....I mean i couldn't understand what was happening with me...I was fighting on trifles...on issues no sane man would ever fight....I stopped talking to some ppl, started talking lesser to others..."They say if some one is angry at every 1 around him....he's not angry at any of them...but angry with himself..."

I was getting hurt on very small but important issues for me...I kno i have been thru the expectations thing....and i guess i have wasted enuf time thinking bout it....I used to think that m stupid to think like that...but it took some 1 to make me realise that things that matter to me are important...so i have started speaking my mind out...like if i dont like something i just say it rather than bury it deep and let it punish me every second...

But still some issues remain unresolved...But hey life is all bout this fight...trying to turn every wrong into life...and those which still remain u kindda start enjoying them eventually!!!!

The three dots...

Well i know, i kno people are gonna call me a paranoid wen they read this post...
But i guess its really time i commented on it, lest it should get the better of me.I guess a lot of people have watched the movie 24... Well this definitely is not a sequel to it. But still intruging enuf.

I dont kno if ppl have noticed there is a very common occurrence in our lives while we are writing which of course occurs mostly in smses,while making chotha (although its been replaced by latest micro xerox technique!!!) and sometimes while posting a blog entry...

I guess a lot of ppl might have noticed that by the title and the way i have written the post. For those who havent guessed yet... here is it...

still??

Its the ... dots that we so commonly see. gramatically seen there is no need for us to put 3 dots when 1 can do (unless we have said something very speedy and we need 3 dots to stop it!! )

whats intruging is why 3?? we could have done it with 2 or 4?

well i guess we have a genetic inclination towards 3???

Top 10 Myths/wrong notions about me!!!

Over the time people have made certain notions about me that are too far from truth...
i'd just like to clear them...

1. I am a very patient but abnormal and crazy Guy…Wrong!!!

I am a very impatient guy who can’t wait for anything… I can’t stand mysteries. I try to complete all my jobs as soon as possible.and except a few occasions of crazy drive...totally normal!!!

2. I am a Big Flirt!!!(a lot of boys and gals think that)……Biggest lie...

Probably the way I say things may suggest m 1 but m not…. I rarely hit on a gal seriously. So gals next time you think I hitting on you…just be sure.. I may be just talking to you!!!

3. I study 24x7…misconception…….Like other engineers I just study before exams…P.S. marks in the college are in no way related to how intelligent (or stupid )you are.

4. I am a snob???totally untrue…… I just prefer to talk lesser to people and keep to myself.. But I’ll help you if there is a problem even if I don’t know you… you just have to approach …

5. I am taking GRE….Not true… I love my country!!!( not that who are taking the test don’t!!)

6. I have lots of contacts and talk a lot to a lot of gals….Farthest from truth……I don’t talk to any gal on phone on any basis…

7. I am getting married???Hell no…M Not even engaged!! It was my Bro's marriage which some people for their vested interests rumored to be mine...

8. I attend all the classes..bunk no class….Not true..m not that sincere to studies.

9. i am pretty organised????NO WAY....come and check my room and u'll say no more...

10. Finally the biggest Myth.........I HAVE A GF?? TOTALLY FALSE... STILL SINGLE.......

Anger - reliever or destroyer???

Life is difficult many a times...It shows us a lot of its vagaries...Some times its beautiful but some other day, some other time you feel chucking everything for good...

One disadvantage of being introvert is that some disturbing issues get imprisoned in the mind...Which then churn your soul, searching for a solution.

When many such issues get stacked you feel like being smothered by the indomitable strength of your conscience. A war is being waged inside of you while people watch and admire your smiles and your refreshing energy...

Keeping to oneself is a great teacher...It teaches how to absorb humiliation,a hard word or comment, a bad break up, a heated argument,a hurting statement from a friend...But above all it teaches to calm the anger...

Most of the times i brush away anger by turning it into a joke...But some times it relapses...unwilling to be cowed down by any argument...which sometimes brings me to a situation where my personality begins to show changes...i get irritated at slightest pretext...the things which earlier used to be a mere joke now sends tsunamis in the mind and attracts a high pitched tone... filled with vengeance....

This brings me to the most important question!!! Is anger (preached by the wise to be the ruiner of everything) a reliever from the pain,a breath of freedom from the stress, an instance of uprising from within? or a passive killer that eats away a person???

Getting angry is not what i am very good at...Probably thats why i don't practice it much!!!!
Anger they say is the immoral of all...that depraves the mind making it intoxicated which then ceases to see any logic or hear any rational thought...

On the other hand, being angry lets out the frustration that is hell bent on bursting like a crater...It is a vent that lets the inner emotions see the outside light...

Probably anger is the red monster we like to become at times and its perfectly normally to be angry but it has to be controlled so that we know when to stop...lest it should ruin our lives for good!!!

The Binary life

In this age of computer technology, we have 1's and 0's every where...The whole world relies on the immense power of this zero and one. These are the latest toys of modern man!!!

But history has it that many a times the games a man plays, is played on him in turn!!!!
Our present life has in many ways become like these inanimate zero's and 1's, where a 1 is the indication of happiness and zero being the bottomless sea of sadness....

The life conforms to either of these....either we are happy or we are in sad mood...

Probably its the kind of surrounding we have...the 1 our life is emulating...Either it makes us happy, jump with joy and the next time plunge us in the deepest and darkest of gorges...smothering the life out of us...

May be we need to rise above all, know the real truth, not the 1 life presents us...But our own truth that helps us comprehend where we are headed...So that we may spring up a smile when situations force us into a grin...So that we may laugh at our helplessness...

LoSt OpPoRtUniTiEs.........

Perhaps its the depth of the night that's making me write this entry...or Probably the fact that m in my final year!!!(just the year to graduate....)what ever it may be....

Many friends we have, have become our very good friends becoz we had common interests like in same dept....or were in same family.....But some times i think bout a lot of people who could have been my very good friends...but for the lack of initiative from either side....

This question arose again today wen a guy in the mess asked me bout how i was...and told me how his studies were going on....i used to work with that guy long time back and we had a good talking term....but as soon as our common interest no longer existed....the talking term vanished....The thought of the lost opportunity to have a good relation with that person haunted me as i left the mess....Perhaps we could have been very good friends..perhaps we could have shared a lot in common if only i had been more proactive...if only i had taken the initiative to go and start the talk...who knows what would have been the case..

But as i pondered over this question i found out that this is not a very rare event in my life...there have been instances where the person i thought was very interesting and i many a times felt that person also wanted to talk....but i just didnt....Perhaps every 1 of us has some incidents where we wanted to be friends with some 1 but we just could'nt.

There was another person in my first year....whom i wanted to be my friend....i just wanted to know about him...but he was not willing to open up....and unfortunately i stopped trying..we probably because of difference in branches...2 years later the person sends me a hi on gtalk...he said he thought about things that happened 2 years back...he said he was perturbed 1 day and wanted to talk to me...but never called...he was sorry he never opened up to me....and told me a secret of his....but still i didnt pay head to it...i just lost it...

i do regret what all i loose by not being open....tell the world what is true me.....

LiFe Is BeAuTiFuL!!!!

Well here i am back in business....coming out of my thoughts on life and its vagaries...
things that make me sad..depressed..many a times...make me feel so not committed to life...

But at the end of such gruesome fights with my inner self...i find the only winner is Life.....
perhaps its same with a lot of people...

we feel so dejected in life many a times...over an issue that is so unimportant..but yet it pulls us deep down in the blinding caverns from which it seems impossible to get out....

but what i have always experienced is that there is always a force that pulls us out of it...no matter how deep we are...

So instead of lamenting our fates, cursing it for putting us in a fix....it imperative to believe in something fundamental and let the time do it's course...till things sort out...

A friend always helps in such a situation...but the choice of friend is essential...
A lot of factors prevent us frm approaching frens...but i guess you need to believe in ur friend till u r good....

And hope u can be of same help to him later.....

Does my Heart want a new love???

Bringing my blog to a new life....
My Eyes went past at the date of last post....it was some 6 months back!!!!
Perhaps that was the real inspiration for this post!!!

I just started wondering what happened to my writing ability????
Is it that i have been so busy??? or Has it vanished??
Just like in the movie Shakespeare in Love..... where Shakespeare loses his focus on writing love stories, his mind now filled up with just random thoughts... and finally needing a real love in his life to rejuvenate his LoSt adroit!!!!!

I wonder may be the same is needed for me???
Advent of a new love in life to sway me onto the cloud no. 9???
well perhaps................

The BEAD Theory

This post is dedicated to two inspiring people in my life one who inspired this theory of mine and the other who inspired me to write prose!!!

There was this question posed to me by one of my friends....
a very serious one,about a persons' nature.
lemme tell it in form of a story.....

there is this person, lets call him @.
@ is a very quite person frm a simple background.
a person who talks less and is happy to be in his own world, who does'nt want the world to know what he is about.....

He is at peace with the environment he is in...
but then something happens and he has to leave his home, the place he spent his entire life...
and into an environment where things are different, like the outside world...


He is forced to adapt to the conditions in his new "home"!!!
this brings about a lot of changes in him....
and he becomes someone he's absolutely not.....

He does things that he'd have never thought he'd ever do.....
@ looks at his life now and the past he belonged to....
he feels the change in him....
he knows there is some part in him that belongs to his old simple life...


Now the question has that person really changed???

well i answered the question by an example....

we all know of BEADS, the scientific 1's.
for those who don't know much bout them....
they have a property that they absorb certain materials and change their shape and property...
But wen the material is removed, they more or less retain what they are...

so i told the person that @ and probably a lot more whose story is like that..
are like these BEADS....
whenever they are put in a new hostile place...
they change, adapt to the new condition...

but on the inside, they are always the same....no matter what reagent u add....
they retain the same old qualities that they had....

i said i kno that @ always misses the person he was and would really like to revert back to what he was...if he gets a chance....

But u know sometimes and in some places its easier change and very difficult to remain what u are.....

Still just like the BEADS, we stand at different crossings of life changing our essence at every step...
but retaining the basic features that probably make us who we are....